Self/home/life/world improvement

[roselightfairy]

Since the beginning of lockdown almost two years ago, I have periodically been experiencing the urge to do one or a number of the following list of things, despite the fact that most of them are never inclinations that I've had before and many of them contradict one another:

1) reorganize my home (in the hopes that it will prompt better organizational habits in general? I have no idea)
2) give things away (this goes along with item 1 because I have Too Much Stuff)
3) support sustainability by giving things that I own to people who need them and getting things I need from people who have them aka creating some kind of community share system (despite having no foundation on which to build this system, and no one in my immediate area with whom a sort of system would make sense)
4) support small creators by purchasing things (not necessarily all that sustainable but comes from the same urge, perhaps?)
5) retail therapy in general (literally never an urge I had before the summer of 2020, and now I frequently find myself wanting to buy things for comfort)
6) go solarpunk by growing herbs in my home using things I have acquired through one of the above methods despite the fact that I am a known murderer of plants (plantslaughterer? it's always neglect that kills them, not outright malice, which is almost worse)
7) send or receive mail (possibly to send items I want to give away to other people, or receive items from other people? who knows?)

...maybe I'm just trying not to think about class starting up tomorrow.

Comments

[kellan_the_tabby]

many of these are good goals! possibly you are not the person to be doing these goals, specially not all of em. & yeah, avoiding thinking about class s an A++ reason to think about other things.

[roselightfairy]

“I’m sad, I wanna buy stuff about it” is a relatively recent urge for me, but it’s a powerful one. And all of it is just like…probably spending too much time online. “I’ll fix the world through my consumer habits” is a very flawed thought, but along with that first urge… but then I think the strength of those desires is what gives rise to the Purge/Buy-Nothing Urge. And all of it is more fun than doing a school program whose main purpose is to critique the whole system that creates those urges.

[kellan_the_tabby]

& really none of it is THAT much fun, I mean new stuff is cool, but the best new stuff is stuff you can use to make other stuff??

also i think i need a nap, words are sure a Thing