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Sep. 12th, 2019 07:22 pmSorry to get personal, but I need to rant somewhere and I don't want to post it on a place where people who know me in RL will see it.
I just don't know what to do with this coworker (the "noise-sensitive" one I ranted about back in June). I've been anxious for weeks every day I come into work for fear that I will arouse her ire again; I walk a vastly circuitous route around her desk, and still every time she heavy-sighs at her desk I worry that it's me, and I've done something.
Today I committed the unpardonable sin of walking behind her desk. In my defense, she was not AT her desk when this happened; she was microwaving her lunch. The route I would have taken would have been about three times longer than the one behind her desk, it would have been an obvious detour, and it would have brought me closer to her in physical proximity. I thought walking behind the desk would be fine.
Oh, also in my defense, another coworker has done it a couple of times in the last week, and HE doesn't get muttered at. While she's sitting there, even! Because that route makes more sense to get between his desk and mine, and that is the route I needed to take!
Alas, I miscalculated, and committed a grievous offense worthy of an extra-loud grumble. And I just don't know how to react when she does this, because I honestly can't tell if she wants me to hear-- or if she imagines that she's just alone in her own head when she mutters about how angry I make her? And I don't know how to bring it up in a way that's not confrontational - and I'm sick of groveling. I've groveled enough. I'm sorry that my work makes noise. Guess what - everyone makes noise. We work in an open office space together, and we coexist. I'm sorry that you don't like people walking behind your desk. I sit with my back to the door, for goodness sake! And do I mutter loudly at every person who comes into the office? No! I deal with it, just like you should be doing.
Anyway, I'm sorry for all this. I just don't know what to do with myself, but it's making it harder and harder to do my work. I think I might have to bring it up with my supervisor at some point-- but I'm so afraid she'll say my coworker is right about everything and I'm just being inconsiderate.
I just don't know what to do with this coworker (the "noise-sensitive" one I ranted about back in June). I've been anxious for weeks every day I come into work for fear that I will arouse her ire again; I walk a vastly circuitous route around her desk, and still every time she heavy-sighs at her desk I worry that it's me, and I've done something.
Today I committed the unpardonable sin of walking behind her desk. In my defense, she was not AT her desk when this happened; she was microwaving her lunch. The route I would have taken would have been about three times longer than the one behind her desk, it would have been an obvious detour, and it would have brought me closer to her in physical proximity. I thought walking behind the desk would be fine.
Oh, also in my defense, another coworker has done it a couple of times in the last week, and HE doesn't get muttered at. While she's sitting there, even! Because that route makes more sense to get between his desk and mine, and that is the route I needed to take!
Alas, I miscalculated, and committed a grievous offense worthy of an extra-loud grumble. And I just don't know how to react when she does this, because I honestly can't tell if she wants me to hear-- or if she imagines that she's just alone in her own head when she mutters about how angry I make her? And I don't know how to bring it up in a way that's not confrontational - and I'm sick of groveling. I've groveled enough. I'm sorry that my work makes noise. Guess what - everyone makes noise. We work in an open office space together, and we coexist. I'm sorry that you don't like people walking behind your desk. I sit with my back to the door, for goodness sake! And do I mutter loudly at every person who comes into the office? No! I deal with it, just like you should be doing.
Anyway, I'm sorry for all this. I just don't know what to do with myself, but it's making it harder and harder to do my work. I think I might have to bring it up with my supervisor at some point-- but I'm so afraid she'll say my coworker is right about everything and I'm just being inconsiderate.
